<b><b></b> <b></b> Me:</b> hi I, aww you want cuddles?<p><b>Sage Kitty:</b> meow<p><b>Me:</b> ok sage, lets cuddle and have tea.<p><b>Sage kitty:</b> meow meow mewmew (while walking by and rubbing the tv)
So I turn on the tv and she immediately lays on the coffee table looking like the cat from The Fifth Element staring at the commercials.
Crazy, a term loosely used in the 21st century, describing a person(s) with odd tendencies, thought patterns, and/or behaviors. Some more extreme then others, yet still all different from the “natural” order of society.
One could be diagnosed crazy for illusions they may see in their mind. some diagnosed crazy for simply believing something strange and unusual, or even for not believing in something.
Within 30 seconds the mind can examine many possible outcomes to any problem it is faced with. We are taught to study for a test, thus to know about the equation before determining the answer, but isn’t that a bit controlled?
Who decides how the equation works? How do we know we’ve got it right, or perhaps I match up some numbers and call it genius? Who knows.
How could anyone know for sure? We are all of the same structure, and therefore face problems in a similar fashion, Assuming that genetics do their part that is.
So if five humans were together, competing in a mental competition with some other creation in the universe that might have the capabilities of our brains or more, how would you judge the score? By whose answers were right? Because they were the same? Or what. Let’s say we humans exercise our minds by religion, memory workouts, etc… Who says that’s the way to go? We do, humans don’t have some insight into the all knowing force or whatever that knows everything.
It’s like when electing a new president of the United states. You’re given the false promise that you have a choice, and to vote….. But this is not entirely true, you have a choice out of the selected candidates that have been pre chosen. It’s just like that with anything else in this world we call earth.
Someone(s) decides the right from wrong and then gives the others a narrow choice of rights to choose from.
How we teach, how we are taught to learn, and anything else you can think of was created in the mind of a human so it would seem.
Now of course this is all hypothetical, but we already know how amazing and detailed the human imagination can be. So whose to say that 90% of our everyday methods, history, and creations aren’t based in an imaginary work within our own mind, fueled by our wants, goes and desires. We cannot prove we know anything, but what we have hypothetically declared correct!
Perhaps the reason for being labeled crazy is due to living under stress, under stress we react differently then we would under average serene circumstances. So those only seen while living under layers upon layers of stress just might seem crazy, for their behavior is adjusted to a world that the average person doesn’t understand.
We find ourselves in an era of digital distractions. We distract ourselves with alcohol, marijuana, nicotine, caffeine and many other chemicals to avoid reality, to avoid fighting through it with our natural abilities we use medicines and sedatives to ease our struggle and distract our minds.
The same goes for the daily technology we use. Cell phones, computers, tablets, iPods, iPads, and many more even still to come and as a result we seem less “crazy”. We are part of something more, a collective of distracted minds all talking about the same show that was on last night. Rather then facing their each individual fears, desires and struggles.
The urge to fit into a group or community has caused us to forget our own battles and unique self, and we kind of like it this way! See now we don’t have to face our problems, we seem normal so long as we follow the crowd to a decent extent, and if we ever go astray we can use the technology again… to blame it. Faulty technology causes stress, eye damage, radiation, brain damage….. the limits are endless.
Finding one’s self in a world as this is terrifying to me. Because with the bills, the stress, the noise. It’s hard to be here in the now and focus on the more important things in life, especially when the whole world and even those close to you are unintentionally, purposely and subliminal trying to convince you to conform.
I have lost my way many times, and I’m not sure I’ve even found a smidgen of it yet, but I do know this… I don’t want to live in this world. I don’t want my children to grow in it just to battle it, too be forced to follow that same distracted and in denial way that the majority is always doing.
I’m in tears. I’m not angry or sad, or confused. I cry because it’s the safest way to release all the clutter, the forced upon me anger of others, and to shake it off without hurting anyone…I cry.
There is no room in a world like this for me. They don’t want my philosophy, beliefs or examples, they don’t care about my ideals, morals or goals. Any individual reading this will understand to a degree or maybe even more what I am saying through out all of this….. and to you all, good luck, and I hope you don’t let this world destroy you. Like it has me.
I realize now after almost 3years, what things I really am a bit sad I have to give up now as a mother. and I don’t mean stupid things, like drinking or partying. I’m extremely grateful and love my son. and love My life.
However this month has thrown me some challenges that have me thinking a lot about what I want, and what I want my life to be. some of the things I wanted to experience in my life, now I never will.
If I had to choose my son over those possible experiences, I would choose my son again.
Just really seeing more of the big picture now and its mildly depressing. because the experience I wish I’d had or could have had involved something I love dearly as well.
Well I shall express it in a song perhaps, or simply just right here in this post. at least I am aware of it and can move forward.